weather's getting so dry.
whenever i start having disputes within my stomach, it leads to confrontation to the toilet, and my butt-hole bleeds after that.
its happens all the time-,-
its damn irritating because it hurts everytime i tried to squeeze these crap outta me butthole.
urgh
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
monday
6.30am
cabbed to the train station with our luggages.
_
7.00am
queue up at the ticketing counter(as usual, those china faggots cut queue)
_
7.30am
boarding of the train. need to help carry luggages for my friends because they brought so many luggages which they cant even handle themselves.(cracked my skin on my hands for doing those rough jobsT.T)
-.-
_
9am
reached targetted distination. carried luggages up and down countless of stairs(mind you, escalators doesnt exist yet)
_
10am
welcomed and fetch by the representatives of the company and the city(da qing) by a honda family seater.
lost our way finding the company.
the company turns out to be in a super duper uber ulu place.
took 2 hours to finally figure out where the company was located
_
12pm
reached, greeted,welcomed, and fed(lunch) by the company.
living in the company's guest room.
guess what? its worst than living in a toilet back in singapore.
_
relaxed and rest for the rest of the day.
hot water for bathing was. super smelly.
ammonia kind of smell, but i have to make do with it since i cannot not bathe for even 1 day.
room was uber freaky because im sleeping alone.im the only guy.
my classmates were two girls.(obviosly, they'll be roomates.)
_
next day just introduction and a brief tour about the company.
and using their machinery instruments.
_
that's basically an update about my changed environment and living condition.
nothing much to talk about, kind of dull and boring this week.
6.30am
cabbed to the train station with our luggages.
_
7.00am
queue up at the ticketing counter(as usual, those china faggots cut queue)
_
7.30am
boarding of the train. need to help carry luggages for my friends because they brought so many luggages which they cant even handle themselves.(cracked my skin on my hands for doing those rough jobsT.T)
-.-
_
9am
reached targetted distination. carried luggages up and down countless of stairs(mind you, escalators doesnt exist yet)
_
10am
welcomed and fetch by the representatives of the company and the city(da qing) by a honda family seater.
lost our way finding the company.
the company turns out to be in a super duper uber ulu place.
took 2 hours to finally figure out where the company was located
_
12pm
reached, greeted,welcomed, and fed(lunch) by the company.
living in the company's guest room.
guess what? its worst than living in a toilet back in singapore.
_
relaxed and rest for the rest of the day.
hot water for bathing was. super smelly.
ammonia kind of smell, but i have to make do with it since i cannot not bathe for even 1 day.
room was uber freaky because im sleeping alone.im the only guy.
my classmates were two girls.(obviosly, they'll be roomates.)
_
next day just introduction and a brief tour about the company.
and using their machinery instruments.
_
that's basically an update about my changed environment and living condition.
nothing much to talk about, kind of dull and boring this week.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
!!
Cool shit! speak of the devil. repair man came today.. now i use the connection at night! wwooooo!
zzZZz
dang this shitty connection.
it broke down ever since last sunday.
the stupid electrician still hasnt come to repair my hostel's room internet wire connnection.
guess i'll be scavenging under my company's working hours to use the internet
T.T
it broke down ever since last sunday.
the stupid electrician still hasnt come to repair my hostel's room internet wire connnection.
guess i'll be scavenging under my company's working hours to use the internet
T.T
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
a day out
went out to carrefour to buy my groceries. instead..... i bought alot of facial related stuffs. moisterizer cream, porepacks, facial scrub wash. whitener mask. etc etc....:X
its kinda cheap anyway.
_
KFC for lunch. thou the drumlets were so friggin small. like PUNY. but it tasted better compared to singapore's KFC.and the popcorn, were soft (not super crispy)-,-. fries were like tasteless potatos-,- like wth:S
but still the zinger burger, awesome! bread's soft. i LIKE.:D
_
stupid china people. never fail to cut my queue.(eating, entrance/exit of someplace which where ticket is needed, shopping, etc etc)
FAGGOTS! cut queue and act as if nothing had happened.>;/
_
snow's super heavy, made the walkway damn slippery.
i almost slip and fell down quite a number of time waving for a cab back to my hostel
_
update last week
sat:
went drinking with a group of friends(which i dont really know because they were friends with my itp's friend which i've made friends with recently.)
they really a crazy bunch of people. making unbelievable noise and bringing girls to our table.(vip table in a pub)
it was fun. and a chatty night.
sun:
party in our hostel, and my room. the aftermath of it was hell of a mess.
vomit,beer cans and odour all over. toilet's flooded with crappy aimed pee. and also blacked footprints.
basically they invited everyone, including strangers.(all levels, 1-5) bunking in the hostel.
another crazy and chatty night.
our party songs made those spoilt sport neighbours(korean bunch of guys) angry, because they wanted to sleep early.
we ended up being friends over a few cans of beer after settling disputes with my boss (strong and muscular friend who talks with his fist).
_
one hell of a crazy weekend. pity these new friends i've made .are going back to singapore(they came haerbin to visit my itp friend, and got to know us along the way)
_
obviously during this partying and drinking, i cant deny sometimes there's an urge to easily just get a girl in a pub or from my hostel and y'know what.
but i've already made up my mind after reading the book you've lend-ed me.
i can easily be what the world wants.
but the world cant be me
one of the quote i derived.
pretty smart uh.:S
miss you terribly, but there's nothing much i could really do.
could i?
its kinda cheap anyway.
_
KFC for lunch. thou the drumlets were so friggin small. like PUNY. but it tasted better compared to singapore's KFC.and the popcorn, were soft (not super crispy)-,-. fries were like tasteless potatos-,- like wth:S
but still the zinger burger, awesome! bread's soft. i LIKE.:D
_
stupid china people. never fail to cut my queue.(eating, entrance/exit of someplace which where ticket is needed, shopping, etc etc)
FAGGOTS! cut queue and act as if nothing had happened.>;/
_
snow's super heavy, made the walkway damn slippery.
i almost slip and fell down quite a number of time waving for a cab back to my hostel
_
update last week
sat:
went drinking with a group of friends(which i dont really know because they were friends with my itp's friend which i've made friends with recently.)
they really a crazy bunch of people. making unbelievable noise and bringing girls to our table.(vip table in a pub)
it was fun. and a chatty night.
sun:
party in our hostel, and my room. the aftermath of it was hell of a mess.
vomit,beer cans and odour all over. toilet's flooded with crappy aimed pee. and also blacked footprints.
basically they invited everyone, including strangers.(all levels, 1-5) bunking in the hostel.
another crazy and chatty night.
our party songs made those spoilt sport neighbours(korean bunch of guys) angry, because they wanted to sleep early.
we ended up being friends over a few cans of beer after settling disputes with my boss (strong and muscular friend who talks with his fist).
_
one hell of a crazy weekend. pity these new friends i've made .are going back to singapore(they came haerbin to visit my itp friend, and got to know us along the way)
_
obviously during this partying and drinking, i cant deny sometimes there's an urge to easily just get a girl in a pub or from my hostel and y'know what.
but i've already made up my mind after reading the book you've lend-ed me.
i can easily be what the world wants.
but the world cant be me
one of the quote i derived.
pretty smart uh.:S
miss you terribly, but there's nothing much i could really do.
could i?
result day
AAHHA~!!
my result sucked-.- again. Lol. although got improve abit compared to my previous results in sp. but it needs more improvement. i need to get at least a 2.5 gpa before i graduate!
UUghhh. comulative gpa 1.461 -.-
skipped work today because of results.lol
_
anyway,im moving away from haerbin. and to somewhere further.
because the current company im working in, does not provide the neccessary job specs we're taught by SP, and so we're changing company.
apparently, this company that we'll be moving is further away from haerbin.
so im moving my luggage to another hostel too.
_
these past few days keep having nightmares about you.T.T
_
going out later to buy groceries and maybe shopping i hope(if the snow stops)
_
post more later. friend using connection now. stupid sharing of connection.-.-
my result sucked-.- again. Lol. although got improve abit compared to my previous results in sp. but it needs more improvement. i need to get at least a 2.5 gpa before i graduate!
UUghhh. comulative gpa 1.461 -.-
skipped work today because of results.lol
_
anyway,im moving away from haerbin. and to somewhere further.
because the current company im working in, does not provide the neccessary job specs we're taught by SP, and so we're changing company.
apparently, this company that we'll be moving is further away from haerbin.
so im moving my luggage to another hostel too.
_
these past few days keep having nightmares about you.T.T
_
going out later to buy groceries and maybe shopping i hope(if the snow stops)
_
post more later. friend using connection now. stupid sharing of connection.-.-
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
near death experience
because of the overnight heavy snow, roads were covered with layers of ice and snow on the next morning.
it was hard for the driver trying to move forward on the iced covered road with 8 people squeezed in the van(hardly any room left for extra movement: eg scratching your butt)
took us two hours to reach our destination because of the snow.
normally, it will take us 30 minutes to reach.
just before we reach our company, the van suddenly swerved and when into a drift before it came to a stop (luckily the driver manage to take control of the wheels or the van would have toppled and cause a car accident)
really awesome to have 1st hand experience on this kind of things. but if i really died right there, right at that moment, i would have countless of regrets because.................................
on a lighter note, i've finished reading your book. need me to give opinion?
it was hard for the driver trying to move forward on the iced covered road with 8 people squeezed in the van(hardly any room left for extra movement: eg scratching your butt)
took us two hours to reach our destination because of the snow.
normally, it will take us 30 minutes to reach.
just before we reach our company, the van suddenly swerved and when into a drift before it came to a stop (luckily the driver manage to take control of the wheels or the van would have toppled and cause a car accident)
really awesome to have 1st hand experience on this kind of things. but if i really died right there, right at that moment, i would have countless of regrets because.................................
on a lighter note, i've finished reading your book. need me to give opinion?
Monday, March 09, 2009
the art of romance is patience
i would like to restate my post on 3.4.09
i know & i'm really sure about considering the possibility of getting marriage.
after going thoroughly on the 1st half of the book:
the outcome of this relationship between you and me, i'll leave them up to God.
i really do wanna know more of you, but sometimes the way you reciprocate is kinda reluctant.
thats what i've felt honestly.
and that is probably why i've gotten impatient and everything.im sorry. im sorry that my impatience has built a communication barrier between you and me sometimes.
this word,i love you, i really dont say them often. not even to my parents(rarely to my dad, never to my mum).
i've seriously weighed these words before deciding to relate them to you.
courtship, are we going there?
or should i rephrase them, are you intending and interested for us to going in a lil deeper than friends?
are you gonna try, considering the possibility of being together and getting married?
i've learnt to be contented, and wait for God's timing. even if you're not the girl God wanted me to marry, i'll still be thankful that you've once been important to my life, and has taught me a great deal through this book
<3
i know & i'm really sure about considering the possibility of getting marriage.
after going thoroughly on the 1st half of the book:
the outcome of this relationship between you and me, i'll leave them up to God.
i really do wanna know more of you, but sometimes the way you reciprocate is kinda reluctant.
thats what i've felt honestly.
and that is probably why i've gotten impatient and everything.im sorry. im sorry that my impatience has built a communication barrier between you and me sometimes.
this word,i love you, i really dont say them often. not even to my parents(rarely to my dad, never to my mum).
i've seriously weighed these words before deciding to relate them to you.
courtship, are we going there?
or should i rephrase them, are you intending and interested for us to going in a lil deeper than friends?
are you gonna try, considering the possibility of being together and getting married?
i've learnt to be contented, and wait for God's timing. even if you're not the girl God wanted me to marry, i'll still be thankful that you've once been important to my life, and has taught me a great deal through this book
<3
attachment so far was super slack.
8am-5pm(working time)
the higher-ups in the company that we're attached in, tried to communicate with us in chinese.
however, our chinese is like @%@$#@. which means that they dont really understand which profession we are specifically specialized in.
they didnt approach us for any given industrial work , so we were left slacking around in the company.they even ENCOURAGE US TO use their internet. lol.
but because we need to write report and give evidence that we did learn something during our attachment, i drew some moulds(3D-pictures in laymen terms) and asked for the supervisor to sign them grading by my performance and punctuality.
guess what? i got A(excellent) -,-
its like the best grade you can ever get.
a lil side track- china's really a laid back and slow paced country.
on the weekend,
saturday:
i went for snow skiing. fell down a couple of times. but each time i fall, i learn something new. cool uh?!
i learn how to steer left and right, and skiing forward using the momentum of my body (without the stick). AHHA
(pictures in FB)
it was damn fun.gathering up snow and compressing them(so they'll become hard) before launching an attack.
i indeed and obviously was ambitious and tried to make a big big ball. AAHHA.well. i succeeded too. but it wasnt hard enought to hurt someone :(
tired of cause. got froze bites on my legs near my ankle. damn pain.
my leathered gloves hardened while playin with snowballs.-.- almost cracked
my skin are friggin dry,its so scarey.(FB also have)
like scaley kind.
am i a reptile? but hell no, IM NOT Cold blooded. haha
sunday:
ate my lunch at mac: SPICY PORK BURGER! (FB)
cabbed form our hostel to walk around the famous streets of harbin in china(something like singapore's orchard road).saw alot of things i like, but they dont HAVE MY SIZE? T.T this is depressing
ate at carrefour for dinner (FOOD SUCKS LIKE CRAP)
in every DISH of food you ordered, you'll definitely see bits and chunks of carrots and lady fingers.this is lame-,- cant they have something new?!
cabbed back to my hostel, and watch movies that we bought in carrefour.
AHA. i found & bought something interesting for you, hope its your taste. :S
havent seen you around lately, hope you're doing fine.take care
<3
(today start work late, cause traffic jam, thats why got time to blog xD)
guess im off to work.~
8am-5pm(working time)
the higher-ups in the company that we're attached in, tried to communicate with us in chinese.
however, our chinese is like @%@$#@. which means that they dont really understand which profession we are specifically specialized in.
they didnt approach us for any given industrial work , so we were left slacking around in the company.they even ENCOURAGE US TO use their internet. lol.
but because we need to write report and give evidence that we did learn something during our attachment, i drew some moulds(3D-pictures in laymen terms) and asked for the supervisor to sign them grading by my performance and punctuality.
guess what? i got A(excellent) -,-
its like the best grade you can ever get.
a lil side track- china's really a laid back and slow paced country.
on the weekend,
saturday:
i went for snow skiing. fell down a couple of times. but each time i fall, i learn something new. cool uh?!
i learn how to steer left and right, and skiing forward using the momentum of my body (without the stick). AHHA
(pictures in FB)
it was damn fun.gathering up snow and compressing them(so they'll become hard) before launching an attack.
i indeed and obviously was ambitious and tried to make a big big ball. AAHHA.well. i succeeded too. but it wasnt hard enought to hurt someone :(
tired of cause. got froze bites on my legs near my ankle. damn pain.
my leathered gloves hardened while playin with snowballs.-.- almost cracked
my skin are friggin dry,its so scarey.(FB also have)
like scaley kind.
am i a reptile? but hell no, IM NOT Cold blooded. haha
sunday:
ate my lunch at mac: SPICY PORK BURGER! (FB)
cabbed form our hostel to walk around the famous streets of harbin in china(something like singapore's orchard road).saw alot of things i like, but they dont HAVE MY SIZE? T.T this is depressing
ate at carrefour for dinner (FOOD SUCKS LIKE CRAP)
in every DISH of food you ordered, you'll definitely see bits and chunks of carrots and lady fingers.this is lame-,- cant they have something new?!
cabbed back to my hostel, and watch movies that we bought in carrefour.
AHA. i found & bought something interesting for you, hope its your taste. :S
havent seen you around lately, hope you're doing fine.take care
<3
(today start work late, cause traffic jam, thats why got time to blog xD)
guess im off to work.~
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
wisdom and romance.
really. i am reeally trying my best to hold myself back from all of my emotions.
but i am not capable of holding all of them back.
how long have i waited, for those three words to come out from your mouth. and im still waiting, hopefully.
do you even know how hard this is?
not be able to do anything. when im trying to make opportunities out of it, and you just pushed/chucked them aside.
i really feel like tearing myself up right now.
i dont need sexual intimacy. i just need your company.
i know my limits where i should and shouldn't go, because i've been in one where i've regretted going into.
i dont see/feel/hear any response from you, any response that you might possibly loved me.
was it so hard.
or did that even happen.
am i living in an illusionary world where i've built fantasies and hopes of my own?
im lost by all of your actions. one moment you're there, another moment, i feel like i dont know you.
why is it so hard. just trying to know you, and nothing good comes out from it.
such simple task and i am unable to do it. why am i even crying.
am i still there?
was i even here?
where else could i go?
the world out there are scary,
my blankets became my safety net.
will you become my blanket?
but i am not capable of holding all of them back.
how long have i waited, for those three words to come out from your mouth. and im still waiting, hopefully.
do you even know how hard this is?
not be able to do anything. when im trying to make opportunities out of it, and you just pushed/chucked them aside.
i really feel like tearing myself up right now.
i dont need sexual intimacy. i just need your company.
i know my limits where i should and shouldn't go, because i've been in one where i've regretted going into.
i dont see/feel/hear any response from you, any response that you might possibly loved me.
was it so hard.
or did that even happen.
am i living in an illusionary world where i've built fantasies and hopes of my own?
im lost by all of your actions. one moment you're there, another moment, i feel like i dont know you.
why is it so hard. just trying to know you, and nothing good comes out from it.
such simple task and i am unable to do it. why am i even crying.
am i still there?
was i even here?
where else could i go?
the world out there are scary,
my blankets became my safety net.
will you become my blanket?
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