really. i am reeally trying my best to hold myself back from all of my emotions.
but i am not capable of holding all of them back.
how long have i waited, for those three words to come out from your mouth. and im still waiting, hopefully.
do you even know how hard this is?
not be able to do anything. when im trying to make opportunities out of it, and you just pushed/chucked them aside.
i really feel like tearing myself up right now.
i dont need sexual intimacy. i just need your company.
i know my limits where i should and shouldn't go, because i've been in one where i've regretted going into.
i dont see/feel/hear any response from you, any response that you might possibly loved me.
was it so hard.
or did that even happen.
am i living in an illusionary world where i've built fantasies and hopes of my own?
im lost by all of your actions. one moment you're there, another moment, i feel like i dont know you.
why is it so hard. just trying to know you, and nothing good comes out from it.
such simple task and i am unable to do it. why am i even crying.
am i still there?
was i even here?
where else could i go?
the world out there are scary,
my blankets became my safety net.
will you become my blanket?
