wednesday
went out with mah SIS! haha. it was the coolest day ever. we should catch up with each other more often. so many deep talks. needless to say, ENJOYABLE too (of cause la, got me ma :X joking)
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thursday
world came crashing down on me altogether. smiles that i've been wearing everyday just faded by itself when i heard a crushing news.(adding with other problems that i've been tryin to get over with)
it was so heavy and i almost couldnt catch my breath even for a sec.
i need an escape.
smoking naturally seemed like an option. (completely forgotten about God. as i've already begun magnifying my problem)
moment of folly.dissapointed people.
although there wasnt any good reason enough to say why i should even start smoking.
but i just need an escape at that point of time. even if it was shortlived. i dont care.
I JUST NEED IT.
Big step
gaved away my cigarettes to friends to stop myself from continue-ing.
even when i was at the brink of tears, there wasnt any.
dried up long ago along with the 2k girl.
-dont bother asking unless i want to share to you.
sorted my thoughts.thanks for the support of prayers(coregroup) and two good friend (super thankyou, especially to one, cause you mean alot to me)
Reality check.
back to where i was, with all that problems fighting among themselves to get my attention.
how am i gonna deal with it? time will tell.
tired.of living.of loving.of enjoying.of crying.(basically everything)
giving up will never be in my dictionary. i know (i choose to believe) that every taste of failure is the beginning of strength.
who would be willing to be my superhero? Rescue me. Take me away.
