chiong ah!

EXAMS!
wo0-ka-La-ka.. sHaka-la-ka...EH!
most DOWN.. 1 more to GO. get ya sorry ass from zeh couch and study MR.LIU :(
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WEDS.
my dad's being awesomely-idiotic. hmpf. i dint know he sucha lame kid till today.
here's the story:
i went out today. and so, i left on laptop on the backseat of zeh car.cause it was too heavy to be carried around->mind you. its 2.5kg and im a weak and FRAGILE kid :(
so i wenta prayer house and have our coregroup prayer meeting.....
so after that. we went to eat. then i wenta wait for my dad to fetch me home.
-he arrived.
i got in the car. and began humming songs on my way back home. just as the car was about to reach the gates of my house, i realised my laptop wasn't with/around me in the car. and panicked and asked my dad whether he've seen it or what.
he explained that he fetched loads of customers and friends of his that whole day, and isnt sure that which LoseR stole my laptop.
i began cursing(in a non-vulgar manner) that idiot and got very upset on whoever stole my laptop.
i was totally lost.(i dint really know what to do at that point of time except getting fustrated on that idiot who stole my latop.) i wished i could really meet him/her/SHIM and kick his sorry ass:(
just then. my father started cracking up and laughing.=.= and instantly i knew he had me.dang! he took out the laptop from his pants!! No la.. just joking.he took out from the truck of the car,which i failed to look.stupid me.:(
it wasa really dramtic luh.. but i seriously cant imagine my dad crackin a joke on someone->ME. guess i had his genes after all:)
watch out dad! JUST you watch out. ima PUNK you.HARD.
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Food for Thought- wouldnt it be interesting to know that God-our Father do pranks on us?
i wish i could punk Him too. wouldnt it be fun?
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THURS.
i was watching the idols showdown on chan5 at 8pm and i saw slyvester sim.
THAT guy's name which i hate the most.
why? cause everypeople i met kept saying i look like him :(
why why why? i think he's ugly. that makes me ugly? :( :( :( :( (heart breaks)


picture speaks a thousand words. am i still ALIKE ass-him?
tell me NO.. please? i more cute right ? :D *self encouraged*
cries~

URGH!!

the week of exams.( wheee!!)
well, my whole holidays was too packed that i didnt have much time left studying. (actually, i made my holiday packed with activities so that i can run away from studies. :X)
aha. this week, im going to be DEAD MEAT.
Trying my best to wake up early and study in school before every papers of mine.(thats the least i can do.)
i wished i had more time studying. :(
oh-wells, guess it was MY FAULT not trying to studying when i had all the time in zeh world. instead of going for movie marathons, mah-jong spree, shopping.etc.
:( sad.
well i am still glad that i managed to make time for my qt.
hmm. well this is what i will be doing on the whole of this week anyway.
eat-study-study-study-sleep. a complete no lifer :(
but i'll be giving my all for this week.(hopefully)
SO pray for me to at least PASS my test? thanks a bunch!!( if there's such sentence)
what will you probably do when you are STRESSED?
what kind of hair will you pull?
<-mine's definitely this! ._.

my testimony

Cant think of anything to blog about. So ima switch to 'serious' mode and talk about my testimony.
( if its even counted as one.)
here it goes then-its really gonna be a longlonglonglong one. pardon me:D
uhm. Backsliding wasn’t much of a big deal to me ever since I left church and started living my own way of life. I was also relieved and felt ‘light’ after leaving all my responsibilities behind me as I stepped out of church.

-I couldn’t stand the constant pressure (and looks from others-not naming them) I faced, with all the newly believers going neck-to-neck with me through the comparison of our spiritual maturity.

It was hard as people have stereotyped that older Christians should always be the model because their spiritual maturity was much higher. Why? Imagine yourself to be an old Christian and new-believer surpassed you. It was kind of shameful for me, having to juggle both competition in church, leadership, and also my own personal problems.

First few months of my new-found life was awesome and hectic, known to the fact that making new friends and having a new lifestyle wouldn’t be much of a problem to me since I am so hyper-active and crazy most of the time.

Every minute the clock ticked, I enjoyed my new life, and soon it became days, and days became months. Then it became a point of time where I felt tired of my life, as it was kinda repetitive. (not exactly repetitive ,but generally, it was kinda repetitive.)

I felt like I wasn’t doing anything significant that I could really be proud of. (like something really meaningful) I am not talking about achievements, but I am focusing about how much impact I did either to people/ myself, that my life would me worthy to be measured upon.

Then, it was that point of time I began to drift back to things related to my past.

What I have done to people and to Him that I couldn’t even believe I did those horrible things and yet he forgave me unconditionally.

How much He loved and appreciated me though I was nothing compared to other even ‘holier’ Christians.

When I was down, and I see every Christian friends known to me busy doing their own thing, never really bother even asking how the ‘broken and lost’ was doing. I wondered “was I never once thought of by them?”

It was depressing. Remembering them as my previous cellgroup members was like adding oil to the fire.

I began to think and encouraged myself that maybe it’s the time, my time, that I should do something about this gap. This hole, that I will do whatever it takes to fill it up.

It did not end with just a thought/ a feeling, soon on that week, a friend of mine send me a song by starfield ‘cry in my heart’. That song touched me deeply. Made me yearned for him even when I disobeyed him. That song taught me to lean not against my own strength, but to Him alone, I can find answers. Making a mistake was part and parcel of life, but choosing is the way of life, no matter how much mistakes I made in the past, God somehow understood without me even explaining. There’s just so much comfort I couldn’t comprehend just by dwelling in His presence.

After that, I went home. Began to do my 1^st QT ever since I backslided..

1samuel 1-28

After reading it, it somehow hit me that I was longing for Him to come and rescue me from my anguish, and He answered. God also taught me that answering isn’t the end of a relationship between Him and me, but by respecting each other’s presence, with obedience, and unbroken promises, that He will surely bless me. And I should start keeping my word.

God is truly amazing. Look at yourself, Your areas of life where you felt that even the world/friends don’t seem to understand how you felt. Just remember that there’s always God for you to turn to, and a friend to lend a helping hand-Me call at 92960478. 24/7 hrs available.even if you just wanna cry out about anything, i'll be willing to lend a ear.

John 16:24

“Until now, you have not asked for anything in my name, ask and you will receive, and your joy shall be complete.”

Ask. And believe that you have received it, and you surely will. I believe that it takes courage to ask and faith to believe. Take that step, and see how much God can do in your life!

Always Be My Baby Chords by David Cook

G
We were as one babe
Em
For a moment in time
C9
And it seemed everlasting
Am                    D
That you would always be mine
G
Now you want to be free
Em
So I’ll letting you fly
C9
‘Cause I know in my heart
Am                  D
Our love will never die, no..

[Chorus]

G
You’ll always be a part of me
C9
I’m part of you indefinitely
Em
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
C9                    D               G
Ooh darling ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
G
And we’ll linger on
C9
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
Em
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
C9                               D
Oh darling, ‘cause you’ll always be my baby

[Verse2]

G
I ain't gonna cry now
Em
And I won't beg you to stay
C9
If you're determined to leave girl
Am                        D
I will not stand in your way
G                Em
But inevitably, you'll be back again
C
'Cause you know in your heart babe
Am             D
Our love will never end

[Chorus]

G
You’ll always be a part of me
C9
I’m part of you indefinitely
Em
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
C9                    D               G
Ooh darling ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
G
And we’ll linger on
C9
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
Em
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
C9                               D
Oh darling, ‘cause you’ll always be my baby

[Bridge]

Em           C9    
I know that you'll be back boy
D                                                C#/D
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder
Em           C9
I know that you'll be right back baby
D                                         E
Oh baby believe me it's only a matter of time


[Chorus]

G
You’ll always be a part of me
C9
I’m part of you indefinitely
Em
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
C9                    D               G
Ooh darling ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
G
And we’ll linger on
C9
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
Em
No way you’re ever gonna shake me
C9                               D
Oh darling, ‘cause you’ll always be my baby
G             Em
'always be my baby

hmm..

On a heavier note, i think i should grow up. i'm not sure.
sometimes i felt that im cool at being what i am right now. but then again, i felt that this wasnt what i really am.(sounds confusing? dont worry. even im confused.)
Wished there was some hole i could dig in.to run away from my own sad reality.
0bviously, my wish was already answered.
i know You're the answer, yet im still hoping for other alternatives.
teach me oh G0d
-to love
-to listen
-to obey
-to feel
-to advice
-to walk
-to hear
-to lead
-to learn
-to encourage
-to perservere
i wished there was a simpler way.
but wasnt Your way already simple?
yet i chose to decide my own route.

How much i look at myself-unworthy of Your sacrifice on the cross.
teach me to make Your words., to become swords against my sins.cast my fear.and defeat my strongholds.

Forgive me, guide me. back to Your route,
where the feeling of peace and ease You gave me will be overflowing.
Like what peilin had said,"make my heart Your sanctuary.

From: the greatest sinner ever known.

heehs.

Well Well Well...
Here's something to spice up your life, when you have absolutely NOTHING to do at home.

so you think im cute?(even if you think not. i AM :P)

china man's eyes (my friend said that their eyes made them look cunning/sly and evil) you think so? NAH. even with this eyes, im still cute :D

ever wish you did not see this at all? well too bad. this is how i will look like in your dreams tonight *evil laughs* :D

va.va.voom!

o0-whee. spend my whole day with zeh whole of zealot. Whole day of exercising (at last! its been two years since i flexed any of my smexy muscles). sorry to all the diet-crazy kids that's jealous of my smexy 'well-toned' body:D
Mysteriously, i still smell nice even after all that strenuous exercise.(or which i thought so)
man! the sun was torturing me.
i wish there were TWO more sun:D
so i could get a darker tanned skin quicker (tired of hearing people start yacking at me saying im too pale)
:( you all jealous say la.hehe
so after the whole sports thingy, we went to zeh house of PIZZA. Unleashing the monster in me and started chewing everything thats on the table, including the forks,knives and spoon.(NAH. just joking.) who in the right mind will chew on their utensils. NO. i know what you're thinking.NO. its not me :P
thanks ah peilin. your mountain of chilli on my slice of pizza doesnt hurt me :P
just that the freaking chilli stings my tongue after that. :'(
poor me, being bullied. someone please spank her :D
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(pray in secret.)
oh God,i pray that peilin will fall off the chair and knock her head when she laughs. Amen!
haha.. just joking. dont worry. without this prayer, i know that you're still gonna fall and knock your head when u laugh anyway:P
anyway. wenta watch KUNGFU PANDA! it is a hilarious comedy especially the ending part where the panda thought his master was dead and he cried out for his master while shaking his master vigorously. SUDDENLY the master opened his eyes and said "OH will you shut up? im trying to have peace here"
That was certainly a classic HAHA joke.:D
went home after that. too tired. having the aftermath of being in the sun too long. overcooked skin.
anyone willing to come and take care of me and my burnt skin? *innocent look*
holidays are coming to a close. OH NO!
exams are approaching. OH YES! (dream on.im joking. its a OH SHIT!)
too tired to study. cya ard peeps. im turning in.
(i mean im going to sleep.NOT that i did something illegal and im turning my self in to the police)
:D just explaining myself in-case there are some retards out there reading my post. ok. actually im just crapping.cause i cant think of any thing to make my post look longer. haha.
long post= smart= highly educated-> me
:P