well. was playing mahjong the whole morning while you peeps were happily dreaming about me.(shy>.<)
the whole mahjong thing was getting so boring. gang-pinghu-game-yishe-banshe-mengching-7pairs all this kind of shit happens.(which is a good thing cause if you get one of these, you'll earn alot.)
after playin 3ses of rounds.. all of us never win much,never lose much.thats so lame.whats the point of gambling if you win/lose little.=.=
yeayeayea..friends of mine kept talking about you babe.dont know why they so interested about my life. but what they said was kinda weighty. like 'dont pamper too much, if not the girl will take it for granted' and other things like 'girls thats serious in a relationship will think about her boy and pay for her things instead of asking her boy to pay for her.(occasionally is acceptable though)' something like that luh.
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got kinda worried about that too after hearing their advices luh. like... 1 side of me wanna pamper you, then another voice say dont pamper too much. i just dont know what to do luh(which also led me into thinking how i wasted 2k for shitsake). ANY FUCKING IDIOTS COULD ANSWER THAT EASILY.
but i just dont understand why im so 'giving in' to everything,able to tolerate any nonsense, that kind of shit to people i really care about.FUCK that.i just lose everything,without gaining anything.how fair can that be?@#$%#
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com'on. i already lost my mum,who knows who i may lose next.she(mum) dont even fucking cared to bother about me, always at the habit of purposely provoking me in such an asshole way.FUCK HER.
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well enough about her.cant stand bitches that crosses my line.lost hope in her.
man, im in a verge of tears, and no ones even there to know.
God knows, and so?
i looked into christian's msn pm, sounds so vague.
yeayea..blahblah.do not judge God through judging people.well but they are christ ambassadors.
if they cant take the heat. GET OUT off it.
stop trying to act as-if you people are 'all-time' holy.
POSERS
THATS HOW you lose people like us.cause you cant even get you own lives right,how can you even help others.(individuals is at fault too-like me) and thats how non-believers lose faith in God Through you people.
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dont even know how i got into this subject.
well back to you babe.im getting all confused by friends advices and my own thoughts. maybe you can help me. all im asking is this 1 thing.
really, only this 1 thing matters.
ihaveputeverythingontheline. have you?
