if you've ever had the thought that you deserved a chance for forgiveness.
sleep on this _|_
because you dont have the right to make that kind of decision yourself.
cause you aint the victim.

2 hours of fidgeting @ t1473. and finally my comp is back to normal-> windows xp.
no thanks to anybody.
esp................ make me dulan only
lend me cd say no need cd key.
install alr need cd key then say cannot lend cd key.
!#!$@%$#^#$ then my comp how?! alr fucking stuck halfway in the installation alr.
IM NEITHER VISTA OR XP. thanks to you.(maaybe not entirely, but ccb if i knew this would have happen, i wouldnt bother trying to change back to xp.)
_

went home at 7pm.
walked pass a group of banglas.
a (knnccb) bangla turned to me and ask me "how much"
at first, i didnt quite get what he said. so i replied "huh".
so he repeated "how much".
gave him a horrified face when i found out what he actually meant, and gave him the middle finger.


WTF DO I LOOK LIKE A FUCKING PROSTITUTE OR SOMETHING TO YOU. CCB. THANKS FOR ADDING ANOTHER MISERABLE MEMORY INTO MY FUCKIN LIFE.
AND TO THIS FUCKING GAYSHIT BANGLA._|_ EAT THIS AND PLS FUCKIN CHOKE ON THEM.(WITH DICKS OR NOT).

Staying silent is my way of saying im not over it, but all the best

Of all the wrong reasons and places, i bumped into 5 of em today. What a weird day.

depression

_|_ myself

10hours of figuring how to install, mount, and bypass the program.
finally im off to earn my quick cash.

staying silent

[edited]

J'ai attendu pour l'espoir, mais j'ai trouvé la vérité au lieu. douloureux un en effet .

sheesh. screw this emo blog.

i've held back.
so i cried & i bled.
but i couldnt forget.

Je t'aime, mais je vais prétendre que i dont

i vous avez perdu, mais j'ai trouvé l'alcool

Je n'étais pas assez bon pour elle

everyday's a challenge.
i'll scrape through.

i am scary when i lose control of myself

@.@

butterflies are creepy

"i'll be prettier, when my wings are fully grown"
says the caterpillar.

i might be drowning at my loss.
but i am sober.
dont play hero.

smiling sweetly to myself.
this aint really happening isit?
feels like a miracle....

oh wait..
im dreaming.
shucks.

nightmares' addiction

eat.sleep.
wake up.eat.sleep.
wake up.eat.sleep

i guess the only time i feel safe is when im sleeping.
because i know whatever that im dreaming about, is just another dream.it'll never come true

coldplay - the scientist

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are.
I had to find you, tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions,
Oh lets go back to the start.
Running in circles, Comin' in tails
Heads on a science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin' at numbers and figures,
Pulling the puzzles apart.
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start.
Runnin' in circles, Chasin' tails
Comin' back as we are

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.

I'm goin' back to the start.

the grass is greener on the other side,
but i am contented with the same ol' one.
i might be hallucinating, but please come back to me

a soothing song for the horrible week

and i still miss you z

a little more alcohol, a little less pain

pouring alcohol down into these pipes.
i need a break, away from myself.

Jackson 5 : Who's Loving You

i tried, forcing those tears out.
nothing came.

this is already the 2nd death of my close relatives.
am i even human.

when a doctor tells you that you have only 2 hours left to live.
what would you do.

i wouldnt try to change anything.
maybe it would be better this way.
seeing others smile is much more enjoyable than smiling myself

Rest In Peace, uncle teo.

everything still seems so unreal

tried to sleep because i dont wanna face reality just yet.
just so afraid to sleepbecause i would get woken up by my thoughts.

numb

there's just so many things about me that i dont wanna show
because i'm too used at making others smile
i forgot how to smile myself

the death of my closest relative, the letter.
this gotta be the worst week of my life.ever

rain, the perfect weather to hide myself in right now.

searching for where i belong

some advice i got from the internet, "Trouble is part of your life, so if you dont share it, you dont give the person who loves a chance to love you enough"

food for thought huh/

i believe you deserved the right to explain yourself.
but urrgh.
you dont even seem to even bother to.
this is so fustrating

closing my eyes and trudging on

i've realised that this blog's getting emo & emo-ier each day.
something you dont see from the everyday libin.
cool.

why was i there in the first place? go figure

something i read from the forums about interesting places to go for a date:

"It depends on what interests her, if you are looking at things that you want to do for you (not to her!).

For example, people who like "excursion" type outings, there are:
- Singapore Zoo
- Jurong Bird Park
- Henderson Walk (try starting from Hort Park all the way to Vivo - it's nice!)
- Sungei Buloh (for the more adventurous)
- Haw Par Villa (is it even still operating??)
- etc.

Is she into cars and automobiles?
- get talking about Formula1, bring her out to watch all the races screening across various bars on Race Day
- make a date and book for some F1 tix in September

Into sports?
- badminton
- squash
- tennis
- fishing (considered sports?)

Into arts?
- galleries
- museums
- plays
- musicals

Into shopping?
- god bless your wallet....

Into gaming?
- god has blessed you!"

the last two quotes are LOL.